sauvignon

2007-01-31T15:13:00.000+08:00

there's a first time for everything,
but there may not be a last time for everything.

the first time i had a valentines date,
the first time i was emo during valentines,
the first time i watched 'her' spend her date with someone else.
the first time i watched singapore coordinatedly shout pubor.
the first time i did the kallang wave.
the first time i realised im expecting too much out of life
the first time i realised im expecting too much out of my bday.
the first time i cheered pubor with matts.

well, there are some last times you never want to have.

nope. this is not an emo entry.
so dont worry.

WOULD YOU BE MY VITAMIN C?

nah. that was just random.
i just look forward to my last emo valentines
and also my EIGHTEENTH BIRTHDAY.
11 feb. yes pls rmb.

anyway my big plan now is to make a successful song by 11 feb!
"take all your big plans and break 'em"
but dont break mine (:

i think i might be goin small for my bday this year.
well, i'll confirm the details soon

there was no sweet beggining to start with,
so there werent be a sour aftertaste.

2007-01-20T23:45:00.000+08:00

whoa. there's been alot of thinking and choices lately.
haa okay there's abt my cca,
since i quite mine lately.

guitar ensemble?
strategy club?

and i'm considering poly's business now
since life in jc's been so poly-ish anyways.
and i'm so far behind in syllabus!

damn. difficult choices.
haa and i have no idea where my priorities should lie now.
DAMNN.

on the bright note,
chelsea sucks now.
yay.

2007-01-17T22:32:00.000+08:00

the three headed beast,

or is it four heads now?

Well, there's not much difference,
cause all the heads are tangled up.

beware.

it'd spit venom at you
and spologize for staining your shirt

2007-01-16T22:00:00.000+08:00

___________________tests after tests.

assignments after assignments.

_________________________projects after projects.

THEY HAVE ME DEAD PRETTY SOON

i've really set a hard resolution to keep,
but i'll not be regretting it. (:
more's to come.
and i'd pray for a good year.

2006-12-09T02:46:00.000+08:00

there was a time when i was so emo.
life wasnt much of a friend of mine.

stumbled across an old blog entry,
and it went like

"they say life starts at 40
but i dying at 16.
i spiraling down this vortex of desolation.
fuck life"

WHOA. i never knew i made life seem so bleak.

and another one went like

"let your handphone take a breather,
lock yourself in your room of grey.
don't let your tears drip past midnight
congrats, you're almost 15"

WHOA, dont worry though.
i really enjoyed all my birthdays .
haa. talk about emo.

anyway, my christmas wish seems impossible now.
soo, i've made a end-year resolution
and i've planned out a sorta schedule
and songs to conquer!

i'm in love with an electric gypsy, but i'm alright!

i guess some of you out there might guess what that meant

I JUST WANNA MAKE MUSIC

2006-11-25T02:25:00.000+08:00

take a sad song,
and make it better;

i've been suffering from a serious lack of inspiration lately,
and all the songs i've been trying to make resulted in tragedies
both in the song,
and the song itself.
and who said inspiration played only one percent?!

soooo.
wont anyone take my christmas and make it better?
like buying me a new nike dunk?
it wont matter if it was wrapped!

or an ibanez prestige would be greatly appreciated!
or even an amp!

yea, like what the dick called marcus said,
im "kanchionging" for christmas (:

so i had an awesome dinner at no signboard seafood today
and take a look at this crab pincer!
it was the SIZE OF MY HAND

it yea, and it was also MINE!

haa. regarding the previous post,
haa i swear i'm not pissed or anything.
i'm just don't wanna organize outing that people arent interested anymore.
soo. yea, until someone suggests, i wont be organizing anything
yepp, i've realized that i may have boring ideas.

anyway, this was one of the more meaningful things i heard over the weak

"Love is like skinning an apple. Skin it too slowly and it'll turn brownish. Skin it to fast and you might just cut yourself"

awesome analogy. coming from marcus.

endings.
lament,
it's over

what seems to be a beginning might just be an ending.

just two more

2006-11-22T19:08:00.000+08:00

feed the world,
let them know it's christmas time;

i'm in sucha a christmas mood now
but i'm also not really looking forward to christmas

anyway, i really need to step up my music now.
daydream audi!
if only there's was like a music hospital or sth.

"he's special, he's got THE POWER...
he's the... DAYDREAMER"
_____________________________quoted: shark boy and lava girl

well, maybe i ought to stop organising events that people arent interested in.
when the reason they actually go is 'not to pangseh me'
outing loses their meaning in that case.
haa. damnn. why in the world did i become the welfare rep?
i just wanna quit.

oh well, im finally gonna be free over this coming weekend.
i'll be leaving for thailand on sun!
til then, take care peeps (:

2006-11-20T01:29:00.000+08:00

an angel descended,

or so i thought.

what they deemed not.

from good friends,
to just friends.

fallen,

maybe,

to just aquaintance

the fire's out.

there was none to start with.

when it just becomes to hard to imagine.
i'll know that you're just a dream,
and i'm far from fool's paradise

2006-11-18T06:33:00.000+08:00

i thank God for this thing called music.

picture a music-less life.
wont we all die?

oh wells.
tdy was just another day.
dave came over to my place to work on my tune
and it turned out pretty well.
we just need the lyrics!

following that,
chivas.poker.friends.
THE HIGH LIFE.

yea. but i've decided to cut down on the drinking,
for MANY reasons.

and i've sorta made up my christmas wish
i think i've lost hope in wishing.
BUT, i still gonna do so!

i can't wait for christmas
if only i had the universal controller in click
then life would be so simple.

2006-11-15T00:58:00.000+08:00

hey there

tdy started as just another a normal day
except that me and abriel looked like a gay GREEN couple?

our original purpose was to job hunt,
but i guess i've already achieved that.
applied for fish n co, topshop, terra cafe, and soon, coffee bean.
yea. then we went to vivo!
and we somehow managed to get high on taking photos!

sooo.

Meet the remrants of running away!

haa. we're now DAYDREAM AUDI!
ohwells, i hope we'd be able to make progress soon

and who said i had a small head?!
you should have been amazed at how amazed we were at this handdryer!

and then there was our emoo time!

and then, the vocal teacher dint come again tdy!
soo we had our own activity,
to make our mtv!

and presenting to you,
beautiful sky
vocals by dave!

yea. badge these days are awesome man.
"i've got F, C and K already. all i need is U"

yea, awesome simplicity.

2006-11-11T15:22:00.000+08:00

i suck at organising!
amen.

2006-11-11T03:46:00.000+08:00

tdy was simply awesome man!
two parties in a row
DAVE's party: fucking awesome.
gosh. never had this kinda simple fun in months!

okay it started off with me meeting our STAR wrapper, weiyun!
and she was late as usual
and we bought a kiddy wrapper which probly suits mr. koh?
then we met the rest at dhoby to wrap the present
and it got in to some "fan" shape!
ohwells.

the part at mr koh's hse was okay only,
cause i think we were rather anti-social!
so i'm sorry!

HERE COMES THE HIGHLIGHT!
DAVE's party!
oh my gosh.
simply awesome
tequilla pop, gin soda!
gosh i love you guys man (:

2006-11-08T20:07:00.000+08:00

older generations usually have a sense of humour that we are un able to appreciate.

this morning,

mum: hey ben, it's david's bday tdy right?
me: yepp. how'd you know?
mum: haha. your mummy got detectives all around!

and my dad comes in!

dad: of course la. your mummy's janes bond!
dad: j-a-n-e-s bond!

HUR HUR

other then that.
life's been rather boring.
soo i love my parents!
and.
i hate pw!

2006-11-08T02:17:00.000+08:00

last christmas,
a hopeful wish.
this christmas,
yet fulfilled.
emptiness.
regret.
done,
what i never should have.
not done,
what i should have.
shine a glimmer of hope.
on a dying wish.
hopefully,
fulfilled,
before it's just too late.

2006-11-08T01:45:00.000+08:00

and we all live in the yellow submarine!

yepp. the creative music ministry of nativity!

cool huh?

soo, i will be summarizing my past few days with photos!

so the past few days have been rather happy and GAY. (:

and also rather mixed up,
like this dog?
or maybe a bear?

and simply HIGH ON ASAHI! (:

yepp. and so we went to malaysia tdy!
and green's my new black!
bought 3 GREEN shirts.
reminds me of my short during cat high days,
but ohwell!

2006-11-05T22:37:00.000+08:00

there's two signs when a person is in a two-sided love affair:
1. smiles like an idiot while msging
2. smiles like an idiot while sleeping.

:D

2006-11-05T01:16:00.000+08:00

love,
given and reciprocated.
watching,
as the love,
which you desire,
slips away.
a slit,
subtle.
but you gradually realise,
as you watched.
you knew not what you were giving away.
lost.
take a hit,
and walk on.
she aint yours alone.

she's simply outta my league

2006-11-05T01:05:00.000+08:00

"women should examine their breast as well as men"

if a picture paints a thousand words, i wonder what this signifies

OH WELL! tdy was simply... a SAUSAGE FEST.
all guys spanking each other's ass, and going "ahhh"
BUT it was still relatively fun.
settlers cafe was simply amazing!
you cant imagine how high a board game can get you!

i think 06s27 should pay a visit to the place!
haa. my duty as a welfare rep!

anyway, too many things to do,
too little time.
common scenario!
i wanna improve my vocals so that people wont run away he min i open my mouth with a guitar.
and i wanna improve my guitar techniques and theory
and i've gotta settle bass for daydream!
not forgetting my daily morning runs, and STUDYING?
i've gotta think to set all these in place!

till then!

2006-11-04T03:54:00.000+08:00

Changes.

as you can see, i've changed the colours of my blog.
i'm gonna revive this blog!

and much is to be awaited (:

OKAY. soo.
i've decided to take more responsibilty as a welfare rep lately,
and it's darn hard i swear.
been organising pool outings, movie outings,
basically trying to get the class out!
but it's been real troublesome.
i'd wish for a little more spontaneity in my class!
sometimes it feels like they're just out for the sake of not being a wet blanket!
oh wells, at least things are getting on track

and i've planned out my hols!
regular runs in the morning,
daily vocal and guitar practices.

anyway, i've no idea what should i do now?
same old 'emo' problem
about her being totally out of my league.
it's all in state of confusion when i comes to that red thingy in my chest.

if i could,
then i would

2006-10-23T23:34:00.000+08:00

the world's revolving,
time's ticking away.
we're moving on,
so move along.

subtly addicted,
vaguely dependent,
accustomed,
attached,
to what was never cherished
faintly fond,
what the weak heart rejected.
spaced out,
strung out,
human nature can't resist.

fragments of you
eternally stuck on me,
words you uttered,
faintly tainted me.
the love i left behind,
friendship bounded
by an invisible hand.

i'm moving on.
you've got to move along.
for the love i left behind,
words unspoken in my mind,
i'd miss you dearly.

2006-10-22T22:42:00.000+08:00

MY SHIRT LOOKS BEST ON YOUR BEDROOM FLOOR.

love is in the air
are you in?
or are you out?
i'd take in,
but she'd want out.
ouch.

2006-10-21T00:35:00.000+08:00

Thanks to all who came for the bbq (:
you guys spiced things up.
thanks the the campers that were making out in tent too.

That's you in the mirror,
you wouldn't want to admit.
That's 'her' that they hate,
cause she's overdoing what you did.
He's just a pain.
it's inconvenient to understand him.

We're all entangled in our minds.
At a certain point,
you could be hating your own reflection.
But for now,
we're all innocent.
we, excluding him and her.
for what seems so true now.

2006-10-16T22:15:00.000+08:00

I JUST WANNA MAKE MUSIC.
how hard can it get?

damn hard.
life can't get more literal then this.
commitment's the hardest word.

a listening ear.
a shoulder to lean on.
sweet nothings
sing alongs.
for the love you left behind,
word's unspoken in my mind.

2006-10-11T18:26:00.000+08:00

"Since there was no real market for masturbation, i had to fall back on my bass playing abilties"

'Cause what you got inside
Ain't where your love should stay
Yeah, our love, sweet love, ain't love
'Till you give your heart away

i could really care less now

2006-09-26T00:29:00.000+08:00

in an exam hall,
even a smile has dual meaning

1. smile of despair (meaning: oh shit, im dead. how about you?)
2. smile of relief (meaning: it was a breeze! how about you?)

OPEN UP YOUR CLOSET
'CAUSE I JUST MIGHT BE MUGGIN IN THERE (:

freedom of expression

cause your name belongs to the words of a song
let the words revelate your thought

2006-08-24T01:58:00.000+08:00

i could have met you in a sandbox,
i could have passed you on the sidewalk
i could have watched you walk away

or she may just be too good for comfort.
oh well, misery just loves company.

anyway, i wont be blogging for while.
not that anyone's gonna read this!
so this is where i'll be:

my studying bed

my 'taking notes corner'

my tutorial table

my freedom of expression.

yepp.

so wake me up when september ends
and bring a cigar?

mirror mirror on the wall,
who's got the biggest balls of 'em all?
the social pages states it's me!

2006-08-15T21:56:00.000+08:00

The sufferings of princess jaded

She thought she was a princess

but that couldn't even have happened in a fairytale.

and she'd watch out!

'cause she's on santa's naughty list this year.

and she's gathering so much hate,

that it turns to blind sympathy.

and she bites more than a giant wasp

2006-08-14T16:23:00.000+08:00

_____________tears dried
hearts bled
______glass fragments all over

... a split second of silence

Love was watching him die from a corner

2006-08-02T22:26:00.000+08:00

'cause her name only exists in a love song.

2006-08-01T22:35:00.000+08:00

silence
for the words my heart can't say.
silence
for the pains your heart bears
silence
at place we first met
silence
under the constellations that shine for you.
silence
for this soul
silence
for the death of this soul.
silence
for the death of everything good.
i'd meet you amidst the holy mess.

2006-07-27T22:53:00.000+08:00

words unspoken.
feelings unreciprocated
pieces all over.
pieces of me reflecting you
i'll meet you in my sunday's best
when i finally try.

the power of assumption
"i assumed he was taken"
"i assumed he was gay"
"i assumed it was cancelled"
"i assumed he was here"
i assume your in your own world

2006-07-23T21:52:00.000+08:00

gave him a quarter.
donated a quarter to her.
jack's been half of what he used to be since then

the emotional rollercoaster.
he shouts, she cries.
a tear for your happiness.
i'd offer my shoulder.

knock knock
noone's here
i'm really tired.
i won't bother to try

2006-07-08T11:51:00.000+08:00

black or white?
make a choice,
and i'd take blood red.

stop it, please.
i'd go seek happiness in my dreams.
goodnight nothingness

WAKE ME UP WHEN SEPTEMBER ENDS (:

2006-07-06T05:18:00.000+08:00

ZIZOU!

2006-07-04T14:11:00.000+08:00

you had the love of a fool,
i gave you the love of a fool.
and it's over,
so let's stop playing the fool

2006-07-02T20:00:00.000+08:00

"i'd never bought you flowers
i just gave you my heart."
for every piece of me that wanted you,
another piece backed away.

my emo fragments (:

2006-06-26T21:31:00.000+08:00

"i dont to throw the mistletoe away yet"

quoted from mike.

it's over,
and my memories are hanged up
like a film without sound.
it's alright, really.

thanks jie (:

2006-06-24T22:17:00.000+08:00

if dreams weren't just dreams,
i'd say goodnight my lover,
i'll see you in my paradise

2006-06-18T00:35:00.000+08:00

happy olden days
same ol' holidays.
i'll melt with you

2006-06-12T07:56:00.000+08:00

starlight
starbright
won't you be my love tonight

"your love fades
my silent crusade
it all fades."

it's been a long time.

2006-05-14T22:00:00.000+08:00

it occurs to him,
that if he had died that night,
he would die happy,
because he was loved.

in the world that she sees,
i'd hope there'll be me

2006-05-07T22:28:00.000+08:00

gone goin'
gone,
everything gone.
can't give a damn.
gone be the birds when they dont wanna sing.
gone people, up awkward with their things,
it's gone.

2006-04-23T01:09:00.000+08:00

the remedy.
wine, guitar, paper and pen.
i seriously need time for music.

preoccupied by things i would care less about.
and taking the fucking blame for what's impossible.
misuderstood the minute i open my mouth.
life aint that good lately.
but yea, things are gettin better i guess.

i'd wish for a second chance.

2006-04-16T23:15:00.000+08:00

life's like a pool of stagnant water lately.
no action, no movement,
i'd wish someone would just jump in,
make some ripples.
spice up my life.

a few hours ago, i would have ended the post just like this.
i guess things arent as bad as they seem

vodka blackcurrant.

2006-04-11T20:32:00.000+08:00

last christmas,
i gave you my heart,
and abit more.
it was all wrapped up.
my first time.
it's all about packaging.

difference.
the otherside of the continuum.
i'd really beg to differ.

let it flow.
i'd wished.
for now, i'll keep my peace.

2006-04-10T00:54:00.000+08:00

a silence; a scramble.
mutual contadiction.
i'll try not to ruminate
intoxication numbs
thoughts illuminates.
the world spins,
but not for you.
revolve,
for me.
think,
of me.

senseless contemplations fills the emptiness.
i guess i'm trapped in

2006-04-08T23:49:00.000+08:00

the black cat hidden amongst the shadows of unseen misery.
a smile outshone by the blinding sunlight.
behind these doors, it's different.
i know your game.
i cant make my move.
shut.

nth's really safe anymore.

if i could then i would.
but i cant so i wont.

2006-04-05T22:02:00.000+08:00

faded,
along with all that bearly existed;
never,
taken a thought without a doubt.

fade into me.
fade with me.

her heart screamed,
i will not love you,
get away from me

2006-03-25T09:46:00.000+08:00

a chance?
or a wish?
a puzzle that cant be pieced.
beyond your grasp.
in the midst of this dubiety,
i'll just wish for that chance.

there's no black or white in this

2006-03-19T00:22:00.000+08:00

parts of my puzzle're missing.
surface loss,
and even deeper.
memories welded within.
the scene where i held your hand.
victory.
plans i drew out months ago.
bypassed chance,
to hand this puzzle to you.
wasted.
i've gotta find this pieces,
and piece 'em together.
this time,
for my sake.

was it a wish
or a chance?

2006-03-14T01:36:00.000+08:00

pray for this scenario.

she loved him 'cause he possessed everything.
he posssessed everything 'cause he had her beside him.

from the deepest depth of your heart,
invoke this wish.

you know you want it too

2006-03-05T22:36:00.000+08:00

dedication; a short message dedicated to someone or something .
dedicated; to address to another as a mark of affection.
affection; a tender feeling toward another

here's a dedication, dedicated to my pae friends (:
affection in a different sense.

to OG10, thanks for the wonderful memories,
the times spent deciding what to do,
just talkin the hours away.
thanks for everything!
and to gladys, for totally lighting up our og,
with all the scandals and scheming?
thanks!

to 06s09, thanks for accepting me despite my lack of presence in sch,
the fun stayovers, the gossip?
and not forgetting the soccer and basketball we played.
haa i was waiting for it all along. thanks!
to shijie: thanks bro, haa you made everything arnd more on and fun.
take care in rj! make them believe you made it to rj!
to meiqi: take care in nj! haa. hope you have a better sense of direction
over there? x)

summarize our lifes with photographs.
chapter one, click.. flash!
it's chapter two now.
first chapter, perhaps our preschool.
even with the slightest memory we have.
with a click of the camera,
flash!
the moment's framed up,
childhood slipped into an album
memories, though vague, existing.
then we entered primary school,
crying for mummy.
yes, it's chapter two now.
and it goes on.
chapters after chapters.
flash!
a chapter concludes,
and the next commences.
our secondary school,
flash, four years if companionshop,
adolescence slipped into the photo album
the memories seem to get clearer,
more significant now.
and now we're here once again,
after our 2 mths in saint andrews.
smile and say cheese (:
cause we've gotta move on now.

2006-03-02T23:32:00.000+08:00

the taste if bitter effervescence,
zenith; inert shooting stars.
a silent yearn for your presence,
under a devoid black sky.
intoxication overwhelms the pain,
your senses get washed away by the rain

the sense of unfulfilment's taking over.
why dint i get to know my cg better earlier?
the season of partings again.
there's lotsa emo stuff resounding in my head now.
cheesy,
and of course emo.
best of luck for the postings (:

X marked the spot where we caught eye.
X marked the spot where your legs grazed mine,
X marked the spot where you said goodbye,
X marks the spot in my heart, the rear view that dint turn back.

2006-02-20T01:25:00.000+08:00

here on the altar of hopes,
lays a cupid blinded with wings.
your sacrifice was worth it,
though she can't fly no more.

slip me a pill of certitude
chivalry; dreams come true
fulfil me with your estacsy cubes,
wake me up, i'm jaded.

take a break to the old garage,
a few puffs of rancid smoke,
accompanied by sips of intoxicants,
you life passes you as you choke.

jane doe doesn't mark your presence
all ending with moments of silence.
it's not their attention i seek,
but it's for yours that i reek.

cos we're awfully jaded
and we're awfully fine
your presence is sole missed

2006-02-19T01:47:00.000+08:00

haa... im like freaking high now.
no more sadness!
haha ycs was alright larh.
not fantastic in any way
but we still gained exp

tequilla rocks!
okay. so the last rose has died.
so has the love.
it's over.
and i'm alright.
this i swear.
so don't worry guys :)

2006-02-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

here on the altar of love,
your sacrifice was worth it,
lays a blind cupid with wings.
she can't fly anymore.

the last rose has died.
and i've gotta move on.
really gotta thank mel and daydream for listening to me.
or for those those did.
haa. and i wasn't drunk.

okay. jaded's the only word now.
im feeling real spiritless and tired now.
real tired.
but i need to wake up man.
ycs performance on sat.
okay i know it's wierd when i say this,
but yea, it's for God this time.
i really gotta wake up.

in the midst of this,
there were so many little helping hands.
i guess you just gotta let go at times (:
thanks peeps.
thank God.

this is an exceptionally holy entry?
haa but yea,
when you're emo,
it always like this,
or the direct opp.
and abt valentines day,
read the top line,
and you'll know there's nth special.

2006-02-13T22:27:00.000+08:00

something that you really want,
some thing you cant get,
not that you don't want to,
not that you don't dare to,
it's just that you can't.

jaded.
if only days could be abit brighter,
so that i could hide under the foliage of your care.
but oh well,
let leave it as a _______ valentines (:
i'll fill it in on the next entry?

ycs praise and worship,
i'm the lead guitarist,
and i can't fit the fill-ins right.
come on ben, wake up.
you're jaded.
wake up.

she's sucha dreamer,
she's caught in her own world,
her beautiful dreams; fantasies.
she's the beautiful dreamer,
and you're not the prince in her dreams.
face it, you're not part of her beautiful dreams.

beyond these dreams,
beyond these fantasies,
the truth you'll see.
the beautiful rainbow,
behind that tainted glass,
where you'd wish you'd be.
beautiful dreams,
she's the beautiful dreamer,
i'd never bear to wake her up,
from her beautiful dreams.

2006-02-13T00:00:00.000+08:00

hands down.. this is the best day i can ever rmb.
okay im 17,
thanks to everyone who spent my birthday with me!
especially to daydream audi.
and mm peeps!
and my one and only jie!
thanks for the birthday bash?

yea. and special thanks to boon and marcus,
the bbq-ers i hired forr the day?
thanks guys.

im 17 and im not king anymore.
haa.
to everyone who went: thanks (:

2006-02-11T01:51:00.000+08:00

okay 12 points.
freaking disappointed in eng and maths.
but ohwell,
at least i've learnt that narrative's aint the way to go.

anyway, i salute daydream audi agn!
haha you guys make everyday fun.
wasted the night before o'lvls with me
made a beautiful song,
gave me a birthday bash?
thanks guys. (:

2006-02-07T22:24:00.000+08:00

let's fucking go fly kites.

my hopes are diminishing.
real fast,
for every single little thing
proof of un-importance.

jaded. freaking jaded.

2006-02-05T02:00:00.000+08:00

don't you wish stuff would get simpler at times?
okay. so life's been real complicated lately.
it's like sometimes i feel i dont belong,
sometimes, i feel my presense aint significant.
but yet, i know it's not really true.
i really miss the presense of some of my close frens.
but our timetable doesnt seem to coincide.
i really miss the hols.
sometimes you wish to just grab that thing you really want.
something's that's faraway,
outta your reach.
but sth holds you back.
sth that's dear to you too.
past experiences scars my mind.
O'lvls results are releasing
i know i've studiesd much harder than ever.
but i know it still aint really enough.
endless stuff is clouding my head and i cant really think straight.

to whoever read this post.
i really had to write it out.
haa. thank's for reading (:

2006-02-04T01:28:00.000+08:00

life's a living irony.
somethings are so near,
yet so far that it's out of reach.
bush is your friend,
but saddam's quite nice.

yea im living an irony now.

anyway. thanks guys for you company tonight
DAYDREAM AUDI AND FRIENDS,
i SALUTE YOU ALL.
thanks for everything.
rock on (:

2006-02-02T23:38:00.000+08:00

what you feel,
might not be there at all.
i've lost my courage,
a loss for words.

I'm stuck on a chain
toeing a lie,
and it seems like everytime that i catch up
i will only fall behind.

life's been real stagnant.
but real interesting.
it feels good wasting your life away at times,
esp with a crazy bunch like this.

im feeling emotionless
and my thoughts are in a random flow now.

2006-01-31T23:45:00.000+08:00

i've been contemplating too much lately.
way too much.
anyway, cny was cool,
way cool.
haa.

party at my hse this fri and sat.
all're welcome (:

i miss soccer

2006-01-28T00:09:00.000+08:00

it's amazing at how simple things link to much deeper meanings.
take for example,
zenith: the closest place to the stars.
yet, it may worth much more in terms of memories.
to some, fellowship?
and for example,
cabernet sauvignon, a simple red wine to normal people,
but a sign of friendship and brotherhood to others?
macs, a simple fastfood restaurant,
also a place to chill and watch life pass

that's memories

well take a break from the day,
and get back to the old garage.
take a look behind,
what exactly have you left behind?
well, the 4-4 classroom overwhelmed with litter,
the days where i used my seniority to cut queues during recess,
gettin sent out of class..
hypnotizing lessons,
trying to hide the fact that i dint do the assignments,
thinking of ways to leave school early,
avoiding the dm,
thinking of ways to keep my hair length and colour.
my skate buds,
the dota khakis.
the days i had to drag my feet to the classroom cause i knew i would be getting punished
and most of all, the GREEN SHORTS.
yea. that was cat high for me.
having fun out of the simplest things..
despite the strict dicipline.

i hope the cny's mood will arrive soon.

"would you be with me?"
with that brief moment of silence, she had killed him so well.
"i'm sorry.. but.."
the death of silence spelt the death of his world.
somehow, there was just a thin line between emotional and emotionless.
he was emotionless.

2006-01-23T22:28:00.000+08:00

life's like this this eternal tunnel.
light's vaguely seen at times,
yet the warmth still reaches your heart.
you crawl and crawl,
gettin an inch nearer to your target each moment.
you're exhausted.
your pens drop.
your wallet drops.
your phone drops.
"that little bit more.."
the thought of your lost valuables holds you back.
"turn back?"
a war triggers in your head.
in the midst of this eternal tunnel.
you vaguely hear..
"take a step back, my friend..."

of late, i've been contemplative,
maybe over-contemplative.
i really miss those days where daydream audi just chilled at the zenith.
oh well, life's gotta go on.
and it's ome tiring chore.
is jc for me?

2006-01-22T23:04:00.000+08:00

miss. curiosity loves playing with colours,

the geek in pink,
underlined with envy green,
chicks in lustful red;
self-expressed intensity
the lady in tranquil
striped with balck sophistication.

well, she's killing me with this,
like she took care of the cat already.
Is it the truth or only gossip?
or just call it mystery or anything
I need some inspiration
that's miss. curiosity for you.

haa most peeps would find the above paragraph random.
but i guess it's a matter of perception.
oh well, of late, life's been really wierd for me.
i think im in love, but i feel nth.
my birthday's arriving and i cant find no cause for celebration
gosh. life's precariously neutral for me.

okay. now. i've been exceeding my allowance like crazy.
i guess i've gotta hire some finance manager or sth.
life's in sa's still fun, but much more tiring.
tutorial's in a class where you're the life aint fun.
attention's not really what im seeking.
oh well, i think i've been cracking too many jokes in the class.
my econs teacher thinks im a girl and the joker of cg s09.
mr. self-amused-freaky-civic-and-physics-teacher's driving me nuts.
other than that life's still fine.

as for yest, we had simple fun.
bascially achieving nth from the hike and the towning.
only taking tonne's of photos.
but it was still fun.

smile (:

2006-01-10T00:27:00.000+08:00

Take my life and put in a bottle.
shake it, shake it forever.
we stuck here, spinning,
neverendingly.

A moment of awkward silence,
some grabbed your tongue?
a glimpse of hope shone,
only to be shrouded once again.

you pulled me out,
holding my hand.
you lost grip,
i fell into the sand agn.

anyway, made a song for my og group.
haa. so if you're even form my og and you're here,
hi (:

I'd never thought it would get so far.
just 3 days, and it felt like mths
the chemistry sparked at first sight
a picture of you, a picture of us.
so pull me by the hand..
it's a short road, cause you're around.

the circle of trust - aruba,
the circle of friends so true to use.
hold on to me my new friend,
dont let go, it's just began

It hasnt been long since we met,
or known each other so as to say
hold on to me, my new friend,
hold on to me, my new friend,
keep this fire burning my friend,
til we met once again.

the circle of trust - aruba,
the circle of friends so true to use.
hold on to me my new friend,
dont let go, it's just begun
it's just begun

2006-01-05T23:25:00.000+08:00

inspiration, deep yet subtle,
slowly flowing into my mind.
"who'd have thought you trade your soul
for that love that never took its toll"

japan X, "dry your tears with love"
i mean. no use scarring yourself for what's over.
dont wreck yourself, please.

"the death of silence,
the anger stored within.
i'd wished for so much more,
but i've gotta give in"

random bursts of inspiration as life drifts on.
haa!
esp in the fun days lately.
blog more next time.. too tired tdy

hide in the shadows,
filter that noise,
condemn the escapade.
scream amidst the ecstasy
make you voice heard,
celebrate the escapade.
your choice, not mine.

2006-01-03T17:36:00.000+08:00

late nights.
wasted by a shots of vodka?
tequila sunrise?
yea, i miss those sunrises.
the dawn of a new day now seem much more dull.

haa. jc life's started.
late nights' gone
let hope for the best.
all seems fun (:

inspirations are gently stirring across my head right now.
songs, essays..
made my seven 2006 resolutions late last night.

cheer up guys.
i'd hate to see you down.
i'd hate to see you hurt.
and i'd seriously hate to see you wreck your life.

christmas was a roller coaster for me.
one that really stayed high.
two slowdance, topped with drinks.
the party seriously rocked the night. (:

new year? AMAZING fireworks.
beautiful synchronizing of the music and the fireworks.
simply beautiful.
yet, that tinge of loneliness sinked in.
i felt brighter than the fireworks?
somehow wasted that i couldn't totally enjoy the fireworks.

it's time to step out of that box.

2005-12-21T22:58:00.000+08:00

whoaa.. the christmas shopping is really killing me man.
tonnes of presents.
okay. so you guys should know what to do huh?
alright man.. sweet dreams are made of these~

okay now on to the spirit of christmas man.
err. dun really know what to blog abt cos this is gonna a last entry in a long time.

thanks to all my dear friends over this year!
r(a)... the "cool" gang in class.. decon..
esp my study clique.. music ministry...
the taiwan clique.. samuel the pary guy
all my other close friends.. amanda, luke, manuel..
and...
DAYDREAM AUDITORIUM!!
gosh i salute you guys man..
thanks for all the fun, laughter and experience!
anyway, got quite alot of experience from the latest performance.
thanks alot guys.
thanks for the wonderful experiences.

now on to my apologies!
sorry for the hurt i've caused man..
if i've left you guys out or.. over-burned..
or been too depressed becoming a wet blanket..
i'm really SORRY.
i've never meant to hurt you~
im really sorry guys!
namely to mark when i left you out..
and amanda..
seriously sorry for the hurt caused!
SORRY.

life in catholic high is over for good.
bye short green pants..
bye hak boon..
bye gays..
bye 2-10 and 4-4..
byebye catholic high~
i won't bother to write~
rock on guys.

one of my greatest is the sense of unfulilment.
the incomplete stuff..
like unfinished conversations..
stuff that you really can't carry on with.
for example one word replies that ends every topic you start.
yeaa..

anyway, all i want for this christmas.. is a merry one
yea a merry little christmas

yea i know, this is a rather random entry.
anyway have a merry christmas guys!
party on.
peace (:

2005-12-18T01:28:00.000+08:00

i swore not to be emo before.
emo kids are gay.
i've really gotta keep to it.
smile ben. pls smile!

tdy feels extremely faded.

2005-12-16T12:23:00.000+08:00

in this state silence,
there's nth more i could say.
i wished there was more.
dashed.
the death of silence?

for same things there's only two sides.
take for example,
you belong, or you dont belong.
depressed or not depressed.
i could be depressed?

the sense of loss.

2005-12-13T17:45:00.000+08:00

gosh. the flu's really kicking in.
wanted to get some rest but my mum went crazy and dint let me get any.

all fault lies with me.
im really sry for the hurt caused.
and will pple stop probing?
it's stressing me out.
i will settle it..

my guitar's crap.
i seriously need brushing up

im the one that needs help man.
shoot me
shoot me hard.

2005-12-07T15:56:00.000+08:00

Last night was a blast!
vodka red label, gin tonic.. wine..
the friends.. daydream auditorium..
dancing to tunes ranging from YMCA to techno to erm.. emo?
interesting injuries like abriel getting pushed to the wall
haha cool shit.
thanks guys.
esp to dave and sam for providing their house for the party.

apparent.
the word that describes my life for this moment.
everything appears to be.
surface prostitute?
gosh

im running away from a rabbit
the trees are swinging their branches at me
the bees are buzzing after me.
a accidental intrusion of territory?
oh wait, why am i running away from the rabbit?
it's not your fault, i swear.
it's the forest, or maybe mine.

when people look at you and mention another name,
it gets retarded after time.

2005-12-02T17:31:00.000+08:00

my head's freaking throbbing now
grad night..
chalet..
birthday party..
i haven gotten any sleep man.
not to mention the delayed hangover.

anyway, the grad night was real cool.
somehow got kicked out of the hotel
and chilled around orchard

nth's really worth mentioning abt the chalet..

and whoa, kevin's bday party.
shortest birthday song ever.
and worst cake ever.
but undoubtedly still fun.

i guess i've been drinking too much.
haa. losing faith real fast. (:

2005-11-29T03:41:00.000+08:00

aloha. back to singapore!
8 days pass by freaking fast
it wouldnt have been fun without company man.

taiwan represents
crazy carnival rides
extreme good food
affordable fashion
and maybe southpark in chi?
and also maybe dicks who dont even know who to put up a convincing act.

man. 4am. and im stoning right here.
and maybe with a tinge of missing for taiwan
grad night's tmr.
i'd really hate to see that ounce of sadness.

once a newborn, now we've all fallen
with our lives pawned, we're all gone
all gone.. all fallen
i could believe its over

flash. it's over.
framed. (:

2005-11-24T12:11:00.000+08:00

smells like liberation
let's take a break at the old void deck

taiwan is sick.
the stuff's damn cheap here.
just apploed for jc
alright guys.
peace out-

2005-11-19T23:14:00.000+08:00

marcus: no man can withstand the eagle spread.
rock on man.

O's are over
and im leaving for taiwan.
til then. peace out guys-
(:

2005-11-13T00:19:00.001+08:00

Here's the story i wrote for the O lvls.
I'll be updating it slowly due to studies...
and i've just realised os can be fun in a way (:

The eternal sun shone its first rays, symbolising the love between Danny and Jean. The soothing colours of the trees, green and brown, accompanied Dave to work. Dave reach the main road, hearing the vehicles whiz by, alongside the rushing pedestrians. He sighed; the sight seemed all too familiar. He stood under the comfort of a foliage of a raintree, and thought of his wife - Jean. He revealed a smile, as the morning breeze freshened him up for the day.

Danny had always been contemplative. Life was deemed as a routine of monotony and hyprocrisy. "Bang!", the unfortunate demise of a loved one. Life still had to go on. He looked at the swaying branches of the trees; it symbolised the pesdestrian going with the flow of society. Danny came from a divorced Jean snapped into his mind again, erasing all the previous cynacism. The image of Jean preparing breakfast for him warmed his heart for the day.

2005-11-06T11:58:00.000+08:00

Photographs could epitomes of memories.
another story i wrote (:

By the flash of time, the universal clock seems to tick our lives away. "Life just seems to fade away...” a phrase perpetually kept at her mouth; a phrase well-said and well kept. Memories were really an aspect that Duff was deprived of, especially the happy ones. The only impressions he had was scenes of his mother weeping through the nights. At times he figured he was disillusion; dangling on the borders of lunacy.

'Tick, Tock', Duff awoke to the usual monotony of his room. The only significant items that broke the almost empty front of his room were his shelves of second hand books and faded photo frames. The wall was painted unevenly with dull shades of grey, somehow paint his life too. Actually, his apartment could be summarized with grey. The grey faded photographs, never failed to sink him into the deepest depths of his thoughts. Sadly, he always ended this flash back session by slamming the photo frames down.

Duff continued with the inevitable daily routine, strolling down the road to his college. Duff was sick of the anger and resentment cloaked in the impatient footsteps and car horns. He plugged his senses into his discman, isolating himself in his own thoughts.

Entering the college, Duff met up with his only remaining love. Helena was a almost exact duplicate of Duff in terms of background and plight. Both orphans and introverted, they could always fairly emphatize with one another. This sense of empathy gradually sparked off the abstract and simple chemistry between the. They proceeded with their college routine. Just as they were about to leave to study for the term papers, they bumped into My Brightley. He kindly offered them a ride home.

Almost just seconds after Helena alighted, Mr. Brightley started his sudden counseling session with Duff. He too had detected that fearsome aura the repelled company. Bearing purely good intentions, Duff was not irritated, but somewhat indifferent. Duff had long severed himself form the formalities and atrocities of the world. He was somehow able to sense anger between each line everyone spoke. However, Mr. Brightley was somewhat different. He gave Duff a real comforting feeling. A phrase suddenly hit Duff right in the nerve, “Memories are always there, so is love"

Duff alighted with the phrase resounding in his head. It was so familiar yet somewhat distinct. He entered his apartment contemplating on the phrase, and this led his attention to the photo frames. The photographs seemed to paint the dullness of his life. Looking at the photographs only led to a dismal sense of not fulfilling.

"Bang!” Duff slammed the photo frames shut. "They’re gone for good!” this thought snapped into Duff's head, stirring up all the emotions that had been numbed since his childhood. He burst into a stated of tears.

At this moment, His phone rang. "Duff... Hilary has been involved in a fatal accident while crossing the road to her house!" Duff dropped his phone on a floor. A deadly silence filled the house instantly. No tear was shed. Duff had just given up all his hope on life. He went to the kitchen to on the cooking gas. Slitting his wrists, he cut off all remaining hopes he beared. He wanted to destroy all his memories with him. His vision gradually blurred. "Tick, tock, life just seems to fade away..." the photo frame suddenly dropped on the floor, drawing the attention of Duff. He spent all his remaining energy focusing on the photograph. For a once in a lifetime, he noticed the smile on his parents face while holding him. Duff immediately opened his wallet to catch a last glimpse of Hilary. Duff smiled.

"Flash," he recalled a scene of him playing catch with his father before the fatal accident.
"Flash," Duff's mother is holding in her arms and teasing him.
"Flash," Duff has his first kiss.

He picked up the camera on the shelf. Duff made the most sincere smile he had ever made.
"Don't worry, I will be with you soon."
"Flash." He captured his last moments. His photo album was concluded. It was where all his memory always were.

"Boom.", the ignition of the camera trigger off an explosion with the gas. Duff took his memories all with him.

2005-11-05T00:39:00.000+08:00

Inside the dark, im aching to be free.
it bears more meaning than people think.
with no regard to whatever bondages.

i've been living in a state of confusion.
"play the guitar! you're lousy!"
"study! you're lagging"
and not forgeting about slp?

undoubtedly true.
haa. but im still confused.
life's real dark.

2005-10-31T13:44:00.000+08:00

Imagine this.

You fall in love with a 'bitch'

You walk up to her.
In your mind, "She's so freaking hot"

You talk to her.
"Hi bitch. i'm a dawg. i bark. woof woof"

yes, there might some truth to that.

2005-10-22T00:23:00.000+08:00

This was a story which i wanted to enter for a sp competition but i dint.
it's a simple story of a guy with unfounded dreams.

The tittering and tattering of the somewhat heavy raindrops, invited the dawn of a new day, or rather, a gloomy day. The room was as good as vacant, with only a book shelf to break the monotony. He awoke to see the peeled ceiling with a tinge of resentment in his mind; he execrated his fate. Blagdon was apparently, the typical boy-next-door. His name meant 'dark valley', and it somewhat described his life too. Scorned by his mother since birth, he never experienced love. Blagdon was a product of a misplanned passion-overrun, borned out of wedlock. The bed creaked unstably as he dragged himself out of his bed. He continued his inevitable daily routine, freshening up and leaving for college.

Though the college was just a kilometer down the road, the journey always seemed to drag for miles. Blagdon normally took time to notice the unnoticable, such as our footsteps. There were those impatient footsteps of the ambitious, racing their way through the snakes and ladders of the corporate world. Yet, these footsteps are accompanied by the reluctant ones of the young and rebellious, compelled to side-shift or even forsake their childhooh ambitions. Blagdon could fairly empathize with the latter, as he had aspired to enter the entertainment industry since he knew what ambitions meant. The results were obvious. The resounding resentment in his head always accompanied him to college. His mother had a bad way of motivating him, always resulting in adverse effects. The resonating words "Why can't you be..." usually made his day.

'The school of dreams', the banner that welcomed Blagdon into the best college in the country. He was of natural brilliance, inherently intelligent. His life was summarized with glamourous statistics, mathematics 99/100, bio-chemistry- 92/100, Blagdon - student of the year. However, all he ever desired was a ordinary life filled with compassion and love. The routine of his daily life disappointed him day after day. Yet, pathetic as his life was, he withheld this diabolic plan of producing a bomb. He could be deranged, but he miraculously always managed to hold his senses together. He strolled into the campus to check the results of the term papers.

"Congratulations Blag! You have topped the level again!"

"You're undisputed!"

These exclaims of praise never moved him. It was just deemed as hyprocritical words with envy between the lines. However, he always made the effort to pull off a smile to these 'green eyes'.

"I'm not okay.." his phone sounded, before he continued his daily rountine.

"We're really sorry to inform you that your mother has died in a car accident that happened this morning.", the hospital authorities sent their condolences. Somehow, he could not feel sadness. Suddenly, something burst in him. His valves seemed to pump unusually fast, leading to a heartache of unknown cause; he had never experienced this sensation before. He suddenly made a sinister smirk. They always said only a thin line seperated a genius from a psychopath. Blagdon decided to seize the day.

Blagdon slammed the door of the chemistry laboratory shut, as he proceeded to produce the spawn of the devil. A tinge of potassium and francium was seperated form the concentrate hydrochloric acid, in a double section circular container. The results of these mixtures mixing together would be disastrous. Unfortunately, Blagdon had already totally lost control of his senses. Deep inside of him, his conscience screamed to no avail, with despair. His tormented soul had been corrupted saddistically far beyond salvation.

Uncontrollably, he did his mathematics and computed the best place to deal this damage - the campus. Blagdon strolled to the canteen, as he slowly savoured the taste of his liberation. This unhallowed desire to liberate all the aimless souls with him. The bomb in his hand seemed to call out to him, "let me out. let me out..", enticing him to just release it. However, he had a far more sinister plan that would even render his inner demons dumbfounded. He coveted companions. He desired the sight of deaths. He arrived at the canteen, satisfied with the turn-up. It was the lunch break. A smug smile slipped out from his mouth.

He dropped the bomb right in the middle of the canteen. The bomb dropped extremely slowly, as Blagdon's life flashed past him. Sweet victory was within reach.

1.5 meters from the ground - "Why can't you be smarter?", Blag remembered his mother.

1 meter from the ground - "You're such an geek", Blag recalled his friendships.

0.5 meters from the ground - There's a baby crying, "daddy!"

Snap! Every snapped back to reality. Blagdon smiled.

Boom.

Yes, the school of dreams. Blagdon finally fulfilled his dream. He seized his day

2005-10-18T00:09:00.000+08:00

summarize our lifes with photographs.
chapter one, click.. flash.
chapter two..
first chapter, perhaps our preschool.
if you even have memories of it now.
with a click of the camera,
the moment's framed up,
slipped into an album
memory, though vague, existing.
then we entered primary school,
crying for mummy.
yes, click. it's chapter two.
and it goes on.
chapters after chapters.
click.
a chapter concludes,
and the next commences.
now,
our secondary school life's concluding again.
the memories seem to get clearer,
more significant.
and now we're here once again.
say cheese.

flash. faded off in black and white.
4-4's a memory deeply cherished
thanks. though im not always there.

day's are getting fucking unfortunate.
pardon my profanities.
everythings' just serving to wear down my tolerance.
now there's just that thin line.
they're leading me to doubt my choice.
just a lil more.
well my priorities lie in my studies now.
last entry til Os.

special thanks to marcus.
chill (:

ringgg.
"hey son, i'm..."
"yea i know, i'll lock the doors"

my deepest apologies for my words

2005-10-09T00:07:00.000+08:00

tdy served to prove that my soccer sucked? x)
weird day.
poor jie got pangseh-ed tdy.
but somehow, im used to it.
i mean myself.

for a moment,
a glimpse of naiveness was caught
a futile attempt to prove.
a juvenile desire.
a wake-up call.
dragged me back to reality.
thanks for the chances.
also not to mention,
thanks for nothing.
keep you cordiality for yourself.
like you did so anyway.
thanks
alot (:

2005-10-06T00:54:00.000+08:00

imagine a world in a state of darkness
obscurity?
a ray of light peeps in,
from a peforation of unknown.
we catch sight,
race,
for that tinge of humanity,
the prove of sanity.
yes, we're racing.
yet, we do not know where we are.

today was great.
sat was great.
let's look on the bright side of things
and pretend everything's alright.

i love you.
three words
yet more than words.
just wanna feel your hands
and know you're right here beside me.

master of puppets?
haa
knid my death

2005-10-04T17:42:00.000+08:00

you're such a twirp.

a flop at activities,

perpetually an underdog.

soccer?

let's not kid ourselves.

you're flunking your papers.

all-grounder, may be down under

you're nothing but a failure.

oh wait.

you're in my mirror.

in a distance,

i catch sight,

of a genuine all-rounder.

oh wait,

he's in my photoframes.

fallen from grace..

turn back ben, please.

your life just took a wrong turn.

dun look back,

i beg of you.

i guess im tired

2005-09-30T02:47:00.000+08:00

butterfly in the winter.
resplendent,
yet clouded and indistinct
asphyxiated beauty
the symmetrical irony.
fly
pray,
that your fragile wings will bring you through.
i miss your presence.

summarize our lifes with photographs.
chapter one, click.. flash.
chapter two..
first chapter, perhaps our preschool.
if you even have memories of it now.
with a click of the camera,
the moment's framed up,
slipped into an album
memory, though vague, existing.
then we entered primary school,
crying for mummy.
yes, click. it's chapter two.
and it goes on.
chapters after chapters.
click.
a chapter concludes,
and the next commences.
now,
our secondary school life's concluding again.
the memories seem to get clearer,
more significant.
and now we're here once again.
say cheese (:

For once,i had a shoulder to lean on,
rest on, and sleep on.
Indefinitely, knowing company.
Eternally cherished,
not evaluated
Deepest gratitude for letting me be a
ship with sails

2005-09-27T20:08:00.000+08:00

let's summarize the expressions in an exam hall below.

generally, there's two kinds of smile/laughter:
1. smile of despair (meaning: oh shit, im dead. you?)
2. smile of relief (meaning: i've maded it! you?)

no. im not posing christopher john.
just inspired.
yes. a freak entry (:

2005-09-25T20:05:00.000+08:00

i met a lady called amanda.
and i went gaga.

watchout for my next entry everyone. :)
4days.

2005-09-20T22:09:00.000+08:00

whispers softly into her ears,
"i love you"
the train passes by.
like the same old movie scenes.
wonders if she heard it.
it never seemed to echo
no reply.
the thought resounds.
disillusioned.
played the part.

it's freaking hard to study in my room.
im feeling the pressure.
yet, im feeling relaxed too.
just too damn distracted.
STUDY
and my parents're out again.
i hate attention
the fucking attention's always on me lately.
it just spoils everything.

on the brighter note.
i've just completed chem revision.
so im left with geog and amaths.
3 song to master on guitar:
more than words (:
tears in heaven
UNIVERSAL MIND.

kill me. rape me. stab me. love me. miss me

last entry til prelim end (:

2005-09-19T23:17:00.000+08:00

today in two words: TURN OFF.
haha freaking turn off.
my _ _ _ _'s _ _ _ _ _ing!
haha marcus can fill in the blanks.
well, im really starting to hate sneak previews.
especially when you're the preview.
like "hey, peep at me."?
man. intrusion. :)

2005-09-16T01:43:00.000+08:00

time is running out.
and no, it's got nothing to do with muse.

if obstacles bring the best out of you?
prelims aint near an obstacle.
it sorta brings out the worst of people.
for a second, i ponder.
where're my school friends?
the ones i hold close to my heart?
well, one month,
and 4-4's just a memory.
yet, im left speechless.

behind these dope,
exists that stain of truth.
never failed to exhaust me.

love, faith. hope, truth.
only culminating in a gruesome truth.
vaguely, i caught sight of you.
effaced my taint mind.
solitude left me for once.

a split second, split alter.
manifestly revived my vivacity
a smile upon my face.
never did i expected this.
deep inside, i was enamored
accompany me; stay close always, please.

yes yes,
i love you.

2005-09-11T01:31:00.000+08:00

here's a special photo entry. (:

seraphics at work

i know we can be crappy.

the legion family :)

this time, with piggy.

my birthday party. with my jie beside me (:

the dis and the jies. (:

cat high's 'COOL' gang. named by boon liang.

clemb. when i was still inside. (:

alright. i love my family.

sweet.

even sweeter (:

me and my JIE!

my loved.

my wanted.

SOJOUNER 2004

grinded (not me though)

my deck.

memories.

i pray they wont ever fade away.

2005-09-10T01:03:00.000+08:00

just had 4 smalls cups of bourbon coke
well, im quite sure im not drunk now.
mayb just a little high.
but wow oh wow.
amanda's rage @ here?
scary =)
well, im some cases, some deserve it.
who's there to judge.

the dignified bitch upon the cradle.
it cries out every night.
slitting its paws, and blaming the knife.
bark?
it's just noise pollution.
self righteous suicide?
despised.
yet i sympathize, realising noone cares.

oh well.
i found my dream mp3 player.
ipod nano. (:

and to all the peeps affected by the particular posts of a particular blog,
well, dun feel dejected due to a disgrace to our religion.
cheer up yea?
though i know the pple involved dun come to my blog. (:

2005-09-08T00:49:00.000+08:00

define bhb.
buay hiao bai.
an ah beng ah lian term of thicked skinned.
well, i admit i suck with any language besides english.
but who's bhb arnd here?
who agn? (:

been real fun studying with abriel.
that lame shit.
studying's been real fun lately.
and with my jie too.
the jie that took my lime mints away x)

2005-09-06T00:56:00.000+08:00

a picture says a thousand words
what more need i say? (:

well, i studied the whole of tdy.
was at amk lib with cheryl JIE since 10.
all the way til 6.30.
i completed THREE prelim pprs on physics!

alright. received news abt maths class tmr.
but well, it's miss tan. so who cares?

i've got my back against this wrecked machine
the master of minds,
i exhausted from it's psychological games.
quit playing games with me.
MULFUNCTION

2005-09-04T22:09:00.000+08:00

this two days have been a marathon for me.
went to glen's church to chill under the stars
same old praise and worship songs.
but with a tinge of pop rock.
and once again, the problem strikes agn.
THE VOCALIST
well, the guy practically got burned by any female vocalist that took the stage.

then, bryan, kaiyang and boon stayed over at my hse.
went crazy over winning eleven
went on a wicked sick spree,
only to be ended by bryan.
played 'unusual' dota matches too
caught two hours of slp.

yea, restored my tagboard due to persuasion

FEAST DAY.
spent most of my day at the dunking machine?
memorable moments.
lynette screamed like a crazed girl before even gettin dunked,
father bosco raised 250 bucks by gettin dunked 5 times.
got dragged into gettin dunked with ej.
well, i know i did drive samantha nuts too.
in simple terms, simple wet fun.
no warped intentions in that line.

took alot of pictures tdy.
with my jie cheryl.
with amanda.
with my buds.
epitomes.

well, imagine a life,
where there were no picture perfect moments.
when everything happening in your current life is reversed.
for example, no friends, no music.
imagine.
just imagine.
fear?
despair?
well, that's how much we've all got now.
it's not your worth.
it's our worth.

from the first look,
futile attempts of denial.
im addicted

2005-09-02T23:12:00.000+08:00

alright. chem practical sucked.
haha i started off by spilling my solution.
sending me into a "oh shit, oh no, what to do" syndrom.
im simple terms, nervous.
haa. this pract was weird man.
the lab reeked of ammonia.
and i guess you all know, it stank,
like hell.

i've gotta admit that wilson is a great dota player. =)

yea. so i went for dinner with amanda.
im SRY i was late alright?
time management aint my niche.
yepp.
hmm, been seeing "bimbo senior" here and there.
i wonder.
not hinting anything alright.
jus wondering. (:

anyway, i may be repeating.
the tagboard's gone.
cos im tired of 'can you tag my board?'s
let's jus say, i tired of trying to maintain the board. x)

look me in the eyes.
cos i've nv caught you attention.
slip the pill of divinity,
to ascend us to the heavens.
a moment to cherish,
or?